I’m not sure if you have ever heard the song by Laura Story called Blessings, but it is song that I absolutely love. I thought I understood the message of the song clearly before, but it was only until recently that I understood the lyrics on a deeper and more personal level. These past few months have been quite a struggle for me. It seemed that I was fighting not just one but multiple battles at once, ripping the very core of my being…my heart. I felt exhausted, depraved of love, and hopeless that the darkness would not overwhelm me. I cannot begin to say how many times, I felt lost, alone, and betrayed by the injustice of what was going on. Yet even as I clung onto Christ, my hope, the heartache and pain began to wear down my strength and patience. Up until about a week or so ago, I was so ready to just give up. What was the point in trying so hard to maintain hope, love, and faith in people when even the people you love fail you, hurt you, and give up on you? What was the point on waiting for God to take you out of this storm, when you can’t even understand why you were placed there in the first place, let alone be taken out of it?
However, even when my mind gave up, when my heart lost its strength, and my ability to continue fighting faltered, there was one thing that never stopped working…God’s unfailing love for me. Despite my lack in confidence that things would be resolved or that God had been listening to my prayers, the truth is God was always at work, whether I could see it or not. When we are downtrodden, angry, lost, and confused, when our hearts become weak and the burdens are too much to bear, God hears and takes into account all that we are going through. It is these trials and sufferings that make getting out of the storm, so much more meaningful. We need to understand and feel the pains of this world, in order to experience and appreciate the true power of God and His love.
I realized this week, how truly blessed I am. Though there are times I am caught in the most hopeless situations, I have a God that is stronger than anything the enemy tries to throw my way. Although these battles are often painful and unending, the war has already been won, with Christ as the victor. These battles are just a prelude of what is to come, and what is to come is an incomprehensible joy that will last for eternity.
In my favorite verse, John 16:33 Jesus says it best:
In this world you will have trouble, but take heart! I have overcome the world.
Our lives will be filled with raindrops and tears, but God will always turn those raindrops into rainbows, those tears into joy. He is at work, though we may see it or not, there are blessings all around us. God’s love never fails, and for that I am eternally grateful.
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.